I had a revelation last night whilst soberly trying to stay awake at Mikaela's 21st birthday, and it goes a little something like this...

I fear that I intimidate guys. Sounds silly I know, but I've noticed for the major part of my adult years that guys will look at me, watch me dance but never really approach me. I've always felt that I am an extremely approachable kind of girl, I never have a bad word to say about anyone and I have time for anyone (within reason). Maybe it's partly to do with me, maybe in my subconscious I don't want to be approached - maybe I give off 'leave me alone' signals. But I want someone to take the plunge and try, it's almost like no one makes the effort anymore. Or is it because I act quite reserved sometimes, I don't put myself (well my breasts) out there enough. Hmm, I'm not too sure. I think I'll continue to blame my height, it's the easiest thing to blame. Especially when you're 5"10 and you enjoy wearing heels that make you up to about 6". Yes I'll blame my height.

Oh I had my twenty first birthday party by the way! It went really well, after a lot of slight disasters. But in the end it was perfect. I'm feeling slightly different now I am older, more appreciative of things, more ambitious than before and set on making something special for myself after I finish uni. I'll leave you with that note of positivity :)

Vickee xo

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